ODE TO MISHA

I followed your blue foot prints

Counting each one through the dim alley ways

I’d say fate played a game but then again I was just a fool.

I saw you in that little army of a hundred

Not knowing I was to join you soon,

Twenty hours with machines, corrupted fare

No time to dream, no one would care.

I told you my daddy will soon come fetch me

You told me to give up hope, for my daddy would have forgotten me.

You were right and yet again I was just a fool.

Still a man did come he said he would save me,

You introduced me to the truth, being someone’s slave wasn’t salvation.

Your one rupee got me a ticket out of hell

But it made you rot there for how long I could never tell,

You said you will come find me, I said under the purple tree I shall wait each day.

You promised you won’t repeat my daddy’s mistakes

That one day in the city we shall live where a thousand lights, would be ours for takes.

I walked into the thousand lights, baffled, young and alone,

I waited for the city to take care of me

It soon taught me happy endings were far away.

A man came again, soon another, then another and so on

No one brought love, just a purpose

I fulfilled hence I lived.

I did not let life pull my hope away, but then again I was just a fool

I waited each day I knew fate would have its way

I knew you would get out

I knew after all we went through

Happiness waited for us.

Sixteen years had gone by since we were nine

Keeping a grip on unfulfilled promises was getting hard,

I waited under the purple tree for you one last time

What I saw, I believed to be untrue

But then I always did trust you would come.

I was making my way, to come embrace

But the wide eyed girl held your hand and pulled you away

I had not known a pain so vile.

I told myself it was time to forget, you were no longer to play my safety net.

It took ten more years for life to finally let us meet

I saw the wide eyed girl still held your arm

The only difference was someone held mine too.

You told you saw me that day, chased me while I ran away

You confessed the girl holding your arm was not your wife then

That had I not been afraid, we would have been together again.

I did not know weather to laugh or cry

Fate, her games, she loved dearly we both realized,

In a twisted life of knowing only misery

My only solace was you

Your only solace was I.

I had heard people say we are broken to reach something better

We struggle today coz we know tomorrow would be brighter

But fate put us through all this without a reason,

Our prayers she completely dismissed.

Was our life not worth a second chance?

Were our tears not worthy of fates glance? 

And then we our taught to have faith

But where did faith leave us but broken, bitter and apart?